i'm getting tired of being awake

i'm getting tired of being awake
i'm getting tired of dragging my feet around
i'm getting tired of being so hungry
i'm getting tired of starving for affection
i'm getting tired of isolating myself
i'm getting tired of watching the sun come up
i'm getting tired of tossing and turning
i'm getting tired of self medicating
i'm getting tired of sweating when i sleep
i'm getting tired of not cuddling
i'm getting tired of daydreaming, all day long
i'm getting tired of being this close this far
i'm getting tired of not having what i want when i want it
i'm getting tired of slutty phone numbers
i'm getting tired of empty gratuity
i'm getting tired of the dark


i don't want to live where my shadow can offer the light.
i don't want to go where we're beautiful only at night.