Tuesday, May 01, 2007

i am a scenario

scenario |səˈne(ə)rēˌō; -ˈnär-|
noun ( pl. -os)
• a postulated sequence or development of events
: a possible scenario is that johnny was punched in the shoulder by his bigger brother. so much so, that johnny developed an inferiority complex and began to build up walls in his life against the antagonists of his child hood. in doing so, johnny realized the value in his own weakness. johnny is only human. just like everyone around him. even the common foe. yes, even the most menacing enemy has his achilles heel, his 'right between the eyes'. johnny has realized that survival is only a matter of suffering the inevitable and manipulating the susceptible. and this being the basis of even the most primative warfare, johnny eyes dug a little deeper. pierced a little deeper. and burned. a little deeper. not to say they all lived happily ever after. even if it is true. what doesn't kill you, is sure to leave a horrible scar. johnny experienced his fair share of scars. but a long the way lived the life of a warrior poet. not so much 'braveheart' mel gibson, as much as 'the patriot' mel gibson. in the end johnny was happy to settle into his little hole of enlightened abandonement. having ruled out all the love in his life, allthough completely aware of it, is erroded by the wheathering footprints of relationships. alone. cold. on top of the world. at least you can see all the swimming pools from up here. beware this trend setting stereotype tragedy. mind you. i wouldn't be too worried. if you avoid it you're fine. and if you get swept up into it, thats fine too. you won't even know it's got you. it's that good. and lets not kid ourselves and try and get too ahead. you can't stop the rock. and YES. you ARE just one person. there IS only so much you can do. never win. don't try. feed the machine. buy coca cola, channel, converse, levis and quiksilver. buy it lots. buy it often. look like something. become someone. you're most likely going to miss the mark, even just slightly. there can only be so many bullseyes. but stay where you are. you won't even know you're gone.

kisses.