the color of fear

there is a certain chord progression that unlocks the tears of my heart. and it goes as follows... no one cares. i figure u can climb the ladder of intellect only so high until you've reached the rung you fear the most, revelation. the little piggies pursue the atrocities of this resident bell curve hate. there’s always a bigger dog around the corner. so stop working out. work instead. work on crying, work on accepting the defeat of a greater enemy and lesser companion. my possible insecurities whisper in my ear in the evening, clouding the setting sun with fire breathing defeat. in a position of possibilities, the farmer finds away to block out the fox. there will always be the blood thirsty fox. reminding you your chickens are never safe. u can only make the coupe higher, stronger, more proud, more beautiful. i turned my hate into the white walls of solidarity and called them friendship. to accept the fear that binds you to your destiny is to befriend the future that will make or break you. it’s Sunday night. i really miss my mom. i really miss kool-aid popsickles. my mom will never stop smiling at me. or hugging me. i miss hugging my mom. my mom hugs my dad also. i think they're in love. don't let longing replace your word love. desperate times call for desperate lovers. take steps slowly. make sure u can look back and remember your reason for eating the ever loving crap every time u wish u wanted something more than life, but it turns out there was something better. tears remind me of a time in my own life. when i thought i owned the world in a kiss. when all i ever needed would squeeze back. then the far east claimed her soul. and i lost the battle of perseverance. a quote of the day? make sure you DO regret decisions in ur life. that way at least you have something to complain about, even in heaven. good bye blue sky.

"the colour of fear"